Wednesday, December 17, 2008 7:55 AM
i think i am veri selfish.and now i am so happy that i have such friends to care me and forgive me after i have done so many wrong things to them.
erm...perhaps three years ago.when i was in primary school.i thought i had a crush on a boy.he is that kind of person who will do his best to help you when you are in trouble,a smart,rich boy.in other words, he is veri popular in school. i know many girls like him. yeah.i am the one of them too. it is not shameful to speak out.
but the point is why i am saying this when things happened so many years already.it s because i suddenly understood that i dnnt like him..this is a matter troubles me so much after i have been leaving that school.untill now.
when i was younger, when i was not mature enough,and i thought i was the only person to be special to him.but i am wrong.i lose because i am overconfident.
things happened so dramastic,when i am puzzling about the feeling towards him,my best friend come and confess to me that secretly she also have a crush on him.juz the same as me.untill now.she did not tell anybody before due to my reason. i think i am a foolish bad girl.in fact i know that my best friend liks him,but i act like nothing.i still remember we three walking home together,having fun together...i think i was the only one can be with him.be his girlfriend.giving him presents,help him tidy his desk,his schoolbag...hahas.nope.i was totally wrong.i am sorri.TING .i am veri sorry.i shoul not act like nothing even though i knew you like him as well.i hurt you so much..and not only that, i also undestood that he is not my MR RIGHT.no,definately not.if he is, why he did not keep in touch with me? if he is, why i feel different by talking to him?we are both changing...we also know that we cant change back anymore..you speak to me today,i am gratfull that you tell me the truth.we are friends, we best friends forever.so we choose to giving up on him together. and we both know that is the wise way and is also the only way..
meng-
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Tuesday, December 16, 2008 1:47 AM
i am very happy today,hunging out wif zihan.i never know that receiving a gift would be a such great thing.yah...zihan bring me gifts from her hometown.i am so glad that she would actually do this.i dunno this feeling...
watching people around me,i felt like being a role in a big movie.and the title is LIFE.among all ages.different stages...some of them are preety,happy,enjoy themselves while some are just feel like crying,stern,furious...why?
we watching the new movie- TWILIGHT.it is great. but i have a question.what is LOVE? do couples living happily together are love? i dunno..
long time ago, i serectly have a crush on somebody. later i found out that he is out my life already.i think i love myself a bit more than any others.
okay, end here.
~ anti-love
Friday, December 12, 2008 7:28 PM
yesterday,i went to yanqin's house, i stay at her house for the whole night.i company her to buy books and it is veri heavy....i slept quite early and dunno anyhow felt lyk veri tired even though i sleep about 9 hours or maybe more than that... today i go PAYAR LEBAR to buy fruits and bread...hahas...i have got things to eat today,finally..
i always eat nothing for breakfast and lunch and if i really cant stand and feel extremly hungery,i will go down to buy something to eat at the nearby 7-11.
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Thursday, December 11, 2008 2:14 AM
hiiiie,its mi...:D
First of all, i should thanks for kerng ngee and huiyings'help to assist mi finish up my space...thank you!! you all are veri kind...heihei..
Actually, we went to kerng ngee's house today. it is quite big and quite clean...the wall is white and yellow in colour. they are the favourite clour of mine as well. i like her house. it gives me a sense of saftey.it also makes me recall my own home,which is far away from here at the east of china.we bought food to eat and they also cook maggie mee for me..(i like the sausage the best.) i was really hungery,because i never eat breakfast.(i always skip breakfast because i think its veri troublesome to cook in the morning?!!)so i eat a lot...haha in fact its not bad...
Unfortunately, it is raining when we going home..i really hate raining.somemore i still got my laptop to hold,so it is makes me emo all the way...i felt tired and wanna sleep...
hope tomorrow i can finish my science homework...
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Wednesday, December 10, 2008 9:17 PM
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