Wednesday, December 17, 2008 7:55 AM
i think i am veri selfish.and now i am so happy that i have such friends to care me and forgive me after i have done so many wrong things to them.
erm...perhaps three years ago.when i was in primary school.i thought i had a crush on a boy.he is that kind of person who will do his best to help you when you are in trouble,a smart,rich boy.in other words, he is veri popular in school. i know many girls like him. yeah.i am the one of them too. it is not shameful to speak out.
but the point is why i am saying this when things happened so many years already.it s because i suddenly understood that i dnnt like him..this is a matter troubles me so much after i have been leaving that school.untill now.
when i was younger, when i was not mature enough,and i thought i was the only person to be special to him.but i am wrong.i lose because i am overconfident.
things happened so dramastic,when i am puzzling about the feeling towards him,my best friend come and confess to me that secretly she also have a crush on him.juz the same as me.untill now.she did not tell anybody before due to my reason. i think i am a foolish bad girl.in fact i know that my best friend liks him,but i act like nothing.i still remember we three walking home together,having fun together...i think i was the only one can be with him.be his girlfriend.giving him presents,help him tidy his desk,his schoolbag...hahas.nope.i was totally wrong.i am sorri.TING .i am veri sorry.i shoul not act like nothing even though i knew you like him as well.i hurt you so much..and not only that, i also undestood that he is not my MR RIGHT.no,definately not.if he is, why he did not keep in touch with me? if he is, why i feel different by talking to him？we are both changing...we also know that we cant change back anymore..you speak to me today,i am gratfull that you tell me the truth.we are friends, we best friends forever.so we choose to giving up on him together. and we both know that is the wise way and is also the only way..
meng-
~ anti-love
